Good Morning. 4/30/2021

A friend's mom gave me some THC gummies to help me fall asleep. I've been dependent on sleeping pills for the past year, and I'm over it. I struggle to get out of bed and into the shower, so even though I'm not a weed smoker, THC doesn't get you high; I tried 'em. And it was terrific. I was so relaxed, and I fell asleep shortly after! Bless it be!

Are you here today? Are you present?

Am I? I'm still determining. I'll tell you one thing: I'm scared. 

I'm scared of this and that. I'm frightened of myself. I'm also afraid of being alone. I'm finding myself alone now, more so than ever before and maybe I always was, but I was too distracted to notice. 

The immediate solution is discipline. I must master it as if I have nothing else to lose. It's the only way out

I was going to write a journal entry, but I misplaced it. I hope to find it soon; I don't care to have pages of my thoughts in the void for too long.