Journals 3/17/2021
I want to start archiving my written journals. They're not much, but I have a need to do so. I'm going to start following my instincts from now on. After I write it, I'll put in some afterthought.
Friday, 11/15/2019, 1:10 am
I just finished eating Walmart pizza. 3 slices. Thin crust, diet cherry, and Dr.Pepper to wash it down. It's quiet in Whit's house. I'm doing laundry, so the only sound is the washing machine. My room is a mess, but I plan on cleaning it at some point. I feel a lot better now mentally. It's been a bad week, the darkest it's ever been. I cried Sunday night after leaving the set of Jackie the Cleaner, and I may have tarnished "The Girl in the Trunk" short by flipping out on Ken. The poor bloke. We will see tomorrow. However, a new idea for a short film came to me about a manless world and a young woman stalked by one. It brought me out of my funk for now. Also, I drank a lot of water and this weird tea with fermented germs. It was sweet with mango concentrate. 10 out of 10 will drink again. Oh yeah, there's a bizarre circle on my right vision. I hope it's due to stress. We will SEE. (Lol)
I remember that night when I got off the set of Jackie the Cleaner. I was the 1st AD(First Assistant Director) on set, which means I was the production manager. The Director had control of everything in front of the camera, and I had control of everything behind it. It went well at first. I had a tightrope around the production, but slowly, it unraveled. On the last day, I lost all confidence, and it showed. God.
Confidence has always been my problem. I'll have a firm grip initially, but if anything undermines it, I'm fucked. I CAN NOT GET IT BACK NO MATTER WHAT.
This was the day I came up with The Boys From Yesterday and The Boy in the Shed, originally as short films, but now they're novellas and novels. I have a third sequel idea called The Warlords of Yesteryear, and it's from the point of view of men during the wars after The Culling. The world is starting to build!
That's all for now.
PS: The circle on my eye eventually disappeared, as it was most likely due to stress.
